*Life's a Load of Crap! It Stinks! So Either You Clear The Shit or Make Fertiliser Out of Em!*

Do you believe that I have released a young tigress only to let it run around in the plains to have its fill of indulgence? What if I say that once I turned to a dragon, I will snatch this tigress away?

I don't believe in minus-possibilities. I believe that anything can happen in years to come. C'est la vie, bonne chance & tout le meilleur to it's keeper.

Au revoir!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Emotions are tools for an artiste.
Without emotion, it's almost impossible to compose songs.
Yet, most became slaves to their emotions and their souls tormented.
I certainly won't allow myself to be enslaved.
Frankly, emo is irritating.
Why?
People becomes emo yet they're not doing anything about it but continuously goes on a repetition.
I get emo in order to write poetry or songs. I don't need advices, because I can have them resolved.
Tormented souls and depression leads no progression.

Seriously, so what if you think you're lonely and stuff.
You have your friends, your buddies, your activity partners.
People you can call your bestfriend. What do I?
So what if you don't have your lover? Is he/she more important than your friends?
I don't even dare calling someone my bestfriend fearing that that person might not acknowledge me as one.
Fuck, I don't even fit in anywhere and yet I'm always striving to fit somewhere.
Do you know how jealous and envious I get when I see people are so closed-knitted with their friends and relatives? People doing what they like together....
And the only thing that kept me alive is music, even so I have people telling me to forget about it. Do you how demoralising that is?
I may say I don't care but in fact I do.
I'm always doing things on my own since small.
I don't think I want that anymore.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Tuesday, February 27, 2007

My stint as a relief teacher today was cool. It sure feels great going back to school. I had to look decent though, and by looking decent means I have to use the temporary black dye to have my hair look black again and I've got to gel up my hair and combed it backwards cos it was pretty long.

The students loved me...and they said that I'm unlike other teachers X). Makes me come to a conclusion that I might consider teaching fulltime...and when that happens I have to sacrifice my dream of being a rockstar :(.

I'm re-addicted to Nana again...was even reading the manga at school. NANA symbolise alot of references in my life. Our similar ambitions, complicated love life, staying true to the strong friendship bonds and stuff. But everytime I read the manga or watch the anime I'm always reminded of this office girl whom I used to date and confide alot with, only thing now is this office girl no longer exists.

"Existence buried in an ice coffin, frozen in memories. Memories framed in time immortal."

Great One Destined procrastinated on Monday, February 26, 2007

L'fleur de Lune translates into The Moonflower. An apt name indeed for us since I adore the beauty of the moon and Gaia loves flowers.

Mars the red planet & Gaia the Mother Earth...awesome!

Both of us are vocally trained. Both of us have this similar deep desire and passion for music. So basically we do understand each other, and it's easier for us to work together for a successful band despite all odds.

People may say it's impossible. We'll never know unless we try, and believe me, I'm sure with our forces combined, we should be a force to reckon with. I hope our dreams will be more than just a hobby or passion.

I broke up with my previous bands because they weren't serious enough as I am. No one understands the pain I've been through, the amount of money I've spent, the sacrifices I made when I dropped out from college. I'm not about to back down!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 25, 2007

Chingay Parade 07

Yesterday was the first time ever that I went for Chingay and it was exhilirating. All this while I thought Chingay parade was boring and lame but oh boy was I wrong. We were sitting at the half lane meaning we were able to get extreme closeups. Unfortunately though couldn't get to see my sister's performance. Anyway, it sort of reminds me of the lantern street festival when I was in Japan, only that they don't have any roadside stalls in Chingay.

To me this time, Chingay is a celebration of life. At least it is MY celebration of life, and I thank god for giving me another chance. I hope to go for another one next year! Celebrating LIFE every year!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 25, 2007

I've been stuck indoors for like a week or so and I'm beginning to feel a little claustrophobic already. On the plus side, I've been feeding my brain with Discovery Channel, National Geographic and Discovery Travel & Living. Whoever says that you can't learn anything useful from TV is terribly flawed.

Anyway I'm gonna take a walk in Chinese Garden to catch some fresh air. Been feeling alot better now, I might even join my mum for the morning jog there anytime soon.

Thanks to my sis, Moon, I've got free tix to Chingay tomorrow since she's taking part in hip-hop. Hopefully I get to meet my ex-dance teacher who's also my sis dance teacher.

March is nearing. I have dances, UAN, kickboxing, physical training regime by professional coach. I've stopped taking medications to allow my body to work it's own natural healing. I should be ready for extensive activity in few days, as long as I refrain from alcohol and coffee.

On another note, wish me luck on Monday. I hope I get through the 2nd interview at St James Powerhouse.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 23, 2007

Mengapa kau tetap kerap di alam fantasi ku,

Namun dimana lah cinta ku yang telah hilang.

Adakah hidup ini berwarna tanpa cinta?

Aku kangen skali sih!

Biarkan lah aku sengsara,

Kebahagiaan mu adalah kesyorgaan ku!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 23, 2007

After being discharged, I've received good news like one after another. Somewhat makes me feel life worth living even more.

Coincidentally few of my friends whom I've not been contacting for quite sometime called and SMS sending me their regards and some said they were thinking of me and stuff and decided to drop a line. That was wonderful!

Makes me think back of what Sarah told me when I was in hospital. "You're not alone. Your friends will always have you in their thoughts."

On top of that, I received a call from St James Powerhouse after a long time to come down for a second interview on Monday. Obviously I was delighted.

Man...life's short, I'm glad I'm living and I will live a beautiful life. Like they always say, everything beautiful is short-lived. The cherry blossoms always comes to mind for its short-lived, celebrated beauty.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 22, 2007

I was told I had tubes in my head, my nose, my mouth, my chest, lungs, everywhere right after I was born.
My 2nd sister had the same condition, but she passed away soon after.

I was told I had a real high fever which could be fatal when you're still an infant, or even if I'd survive I'd be having a certain neuro damage. But I made it.

I had pneumonia and frequent asthmatic attacks when I was very young. I was told not to do sports or swim and stuff like that. But I took the risks and joined the track and field. I swam frequently and I did extreme sports. I recovered even refusing to take medications and the 'puffer'.

I almost drowned swimming in the beautiful beach of bali when I was 9. My leg got cramped, I was in deep waters and just when I was about to give up, my leg recovered and attained mobility.

I almost fell down the cliff at Pulau Ubin when I was cycling, yet I managed to stop just inches away thanks to my friends then. I didn't realise till I became conscious of it.

I've had alot of crash and burn, got knocked by a car, fell from heights...yet miraculously I've never had any broken bones in my entire life except for just dislocated shoulders and few scratches.

I suffered from viral lung infection in 2003, yet I proceeded on with National Service. I served even when I was weak with high fever. I recovered.

I had another viral infection in my liver last year right when I was having my Korean exchange. I had my responsibilites and I didn't want to miss out on this opportunity, I suppose having alot of fun and releasing natural endorphin was my pain killer. Managed to recover few weeks after that.

Recently, my right kidney was infected. Was hospitalised for the past few days and was only discharged 2 days ago. That's the reason for my hiatus on this blog.

I made a 'friend' when I was there. There was a girl sobbing beside my bed at night. I decided to chat up with her, she missed her family terribly. It never came to mind why I'd never see her when I woke up in the day and there she'd be at the usual place when I woke up at night. I was glad I knew her. But I don't think I'd be seeing her ever again. She passed away a week before I was there. I hope she can rest now.

"S, I'll always remember our short moment. You'll be remembered."

I've always been very lucky. I've always felt that someone is watching over me. I guess maybe it's my late sister, maybe it's my ah ma who doted me alot. Or perhaps just a guardian angel. There's always a familiar presence.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 22, 2007

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

Great One Destined procrastinated on Tuesday, February 13, 2007

I've finally found the answer as to why ex-couples would rather be strangers and not see each other ever instead. Maybe because I wasn't really in love before. For the first time I think I felt what love is, and it pains me. It all makes sense why ex-couples prefer cutting off contact with each other.

Though a couple might have split for a long time, if love was really involved instead of plain lust and infatuation...it is difficult for him to see a girl whom he used to date with another guy. Of course he'd like the girl to be happy and stuff, but haven't you heard that love is selfish?

Perhaps both of them might date another....time would still never heal the pain of the memories that they were both together before. Time really doesn't heal everything.

I still think it's best for the both of them to never meet each other, ever again. Thus I think, being in Australia for about 2 or 3 years would be good for me. Perhaps after graduating I might consider staying longer for like 5 years or maybe more.

Damn why did I ever get myself into this emotional mess?!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Monday, February 12, 2007

I miss the airport greatly. I really miss working at the airport. On top of that I haven't been travelling for a very very long time since Bali.

I miss the airport.

I miss working.

I miss my ex-colleagues.

I miss travelling.

"You can take Mazs away from the airport. But you can never take the airport away from Mazs."

Great One Destined procrastinated on Monday, February 12, 2007

Suddenly I remembered I had quite an interesting dream last night. I was living in this spacious house yet it feels so gloomy. The ceiling was about 3 or 4 storeys high. I felt very very calm, perhaps because I wasn't feeling claustrophobic due to the huge space. There were many others in the house with me, but I don't think I recognise their faces. On my arms, I was holding an infant. A very very cute baby. At that moment I felt that the baby was the world to me. When he called me 'da-da' I could feel tears trickling down my cheeks. I put the baby down, and I laid down beside her and I dozed off after that. That's when I woke up from my sleep.

And 'NANA' appeared in my dream once more!

Never had such a peaceful dream for a long time.

Labels: dreams

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 11, 2007

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes, hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget
I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I'll turn back now and spread

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Across the sky, just keep on flying

The pain that cannot be measured, the flow of time that cannot be measured
Even if that may fill up everything
I can still feel
What falls from the sky is not the rain. . .

Did I ever chain you down to my heart
'Cause I was afraid of you?
No, I couldn't hold any longer
Love is not a toy
Let go of me now
The time we spent is perpetual
Our future is not real
I'll leap into the air

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings How far should I go drifting in the wind
Across the sky, just keep on flying

What falls from the sky is not the rain. . .

Labels: lyrics

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 11, 2007

For awhile I thought I've lost my articulation skills. My mind went to a sudden blank, like as much as I want to express my thoughts no words seems to come out.

Condolence to Felicia Chin's junior who passed away at such a young age. We have to face a fact that we don't have to wait till old age to die. Death comes at any point of our life, it's just a matter of when only no one knows when. So live without regrets, and live like as if there's no tomorrow. Live the moment and love like you've never loved before. And seek forgiveness while you still have the time. I'm living that way now, I always have this feeling that I'm not blessed with longevity...but what the hell, I'm still doing what I've always wanted. The day my entire life passed before me, I only want to smile reminiscing before I meet my maker.

It's Visit Malaysia year, and I didn't know Malaysia has such beautiful attractions, really. If only I have time for a few more road-trips before April.

The GST hike is imminent. I will definitely stop MAJOR shopping here. When I'm still in Singapore, I'd make it a point to go across the causeway in at least every 3 months or so for shopping spree. It definitely makes economic sense. Firstly, I can buy a similar apparel like example an original Adidas which is obviously 'Made In China' at a lower price in Malaysia. Malaysia do not practice any taxes on retail goods.

So imagine if you're out on a HUGE shopping spree like I would once in awhile, I'd be paying like S$10 on GST(depends on what I buy), when I can actually buy something else with it. Converting that to Malaysian Ringgit it's RM$23, and I can get myself a proper lunch if not better.

Convenience wise, I can easily get an express bus direct to KL or Johore from Jurong East Interchange. I don't even need to get onto a plane.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 11, 2007

You Are 81% Passionate, 19% Compassionate

You are a truly passionate person, and for you, love is a drug.
When you're in love, you lose all grip on reality. And it's a wild ride.
Although falling in love is vivid experience for you, it's sometimes *too* intense.

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

Great One Destined procrastinated on Saturday, February 10, 2007

While watching Let It Shine, something striked me. Some of the scenes are almost as familiar as GTO if you've ever watched before. But nonetheless it's still interesting to watch and not forgetting another interesting drama Happily Ever After which I didn't really get the chance to watch every episodes. Finally, an excuse for me to be a couch potato...the local dramas on TV has been so soapy and boring. These 2 serials are definitely a MUST watch. Thanks to Youtube, I managed to catch the previous episodes of Let It Shine....ahhh so happy can get to watch OTOT (own time own target). I might consider getting MobTV...I wonder if I can still acess if I'm in Australia cos I'd definitely miss watching local and Asian shows.

Anyway back on Let It Shine, I remembered when I had an ambition of being a teacher quite some time back. Ok I know what you're thinking. Believe it or not I love the school's environment and no I won't flirt with the female students, maybe once awhile with the young teachers. Seriously, I might consider being one after I graduate. I don't know if I'm able to apply with NIE with my Australian degree though. I can just foresee me being a student's teacher and hated by other teachers with my out-of-the-norm approach which is no stranger to me everytime. Haha!

I'm not fickle-minded but I've got to have back-up plans if what I worked towards don't work as plan...

Mars The Rock Star

Mas Suyoto The Air Steward

Tango Mas The Duty Manager at The Airport

Mr Mas The English Language Teacher

just having my own business

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 09, 2007

I accidentally came across this while I was 'web-strolling'. Alan if you're reading this, I hope you don't mind me 'stealing' this video yah hehe.

He's one of my mates from UAN. Gaia does it sound familiar to you? Hehe it's your song.

I'm turning vegetarian. Ok not really, more like I'm turning organic and besides veggies, most of my diet will only consist of fish and eggs. And an occasional white meat like chicken.

I just hope the demand of butchered livestocks decrease!

Check these videos out. Where does your meat comes from?

[WARNING: NOT FOR THE SQUIMMISH!]

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 09, 2007

Nervously waiting for my results from Australian side. Been having sleepless nights...yeah insomnia is getting up to me again.

Have officially registered for the school but still can't do the complete admin stuff till the results are out.

Sheesh...this is absolutely nerve-wrecking!

Been having this zit-like thing under my left eye-lid for the past few days and it has been very very irritating and somewhat painful. Damn what did I do to get this.

Went for an interview at St James Powerhouse...brought along my lucky bracelette, just hope it works again like last time. I WANT THIS!!!

I don't really need a job...but I've been freakin bored. Oh what a bummer I am!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 08, 2007

Anyone watched today's episode of Ying Huo Chong De Meng (Let It Shine) on Channel 8?

(how I wish I can put up some pictures of the serial but I wouldn't want to risk getting any lawsuit)

Anyway, today's episode was sweet like awwwww....

Lin Haifeng(Adam Chen) finally confessed to Yoyo(Felicia Chin). The process was so cute la....and girls, it's not easy for a guy to express out loud his feelings ok. The feeling is even worse than having to face a tiger, it's like you wished you could just die after saying those 3 words (you know what).

But then again, once he sees the smile on the girl's face and her positive acknowledgment...that moment itself is sweet and timeless. It's like heaven in an instant and you wished time had stopped.

Ohh dear here I am 'in the mood' again.....

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 08, 2007

Finally gotten my new timetable. Looks like it'll be all the way till I leave, cool! Now where the hell is Pagoda St?

Great One Destined procrastinated on Wednesday, February 07, 2007

"I'm neither decently good;

Nor am I bad.

I'm just a fusion of both,

A rebel by nature.

Even my heart is rebelling against me!

Though we met not long,

I don't know why this cycle starts again.

How I wish I can just let you know my feelings,

But it's not that easy.

It's just a matter of time before I fly off.

I can only hope this feeling stays here as I leave.

For whom of the past,

We have set ourselves an invisible deal.

Moved on with our own lives.

Separate entities we are.

Don't imprison ourselves with what's been done.

Live free towards a new path.

The married & the engaged,

Don't come to me!

I have my pride & my morals,

I'm not a breaker of matrimony.

Wake up to reality,

I can never be yours,

For I have one at heart.

My heart chooses whom it prefers.

My mind rejects it's intentions.

My body betrays me, it always had.

For you are whom I've kept dreaming of.

C'est la vie, my lady!"

Great One Destined procrastinated on Wednesday, February 07, 2007

(SOLER, my HK friends said I looked like one of them)

Anyone's good with Cantonese?

I'm learning it. Why am I suddenly interested in Cantonese, you ask.

Actually been quite sometime but still couldn't find the purpose of needing to use the language yet until now. A friend of mine in Hong Kong has been asking me like repeatedly so that it's better for her to communicate with me and also I might take up assignments in Hong Kong 3-4 years down the road.

By 2010 I need to be fluent in Japanese, Mandarin, Cantonese and Bahasa Indonesia. It doesn't matter if I'm fluent orally, the writing can wait.

On other note,

Someone mentioned that the reason why I want to fly and to go overseas is to escape. Once upon a time that was true but not anymore. I don't need to escape anymore, I don't need to run away from anything anymore. I have everything I want right here.

That's the problem. I've got everything here, and being too comfortable in the comfort zone makes one lazy. I don't want to be like that.

I don't want to stay in this nest where I know food will always be fed in my mouth and I just need to open my mouth and chirp for food. I'm like an eagle that likes to soar high in the skies, going from hilltops to hilltops and locating for the highest branch to build my nest. I'm a wanderer, and I need adventure. The world is my playground, Singapore is just a small balcony to me.

I hope the rest of you can understand that I'm not escaping from anything. It is my choice to live this life of a nomad. And with the power of language, I'm sure I can fit in anywhere.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Tuesday, February 06, 2007

I think my biological clock has finally been fixed. Been having good sleep and I've been waking up early mornings.

Anyway, didn't know Singapore can be this chilly and cold. I was in singlets and running shorts. Sheesh, it's rare or rather almost never that Singapore had this kind of winds. It feels like Taiwan already during the windy season.

On my way back home in the bus from Jurong Point, there was this army guy sitting beside me. His mobile rang. I was stunned when I overheard his conversations on the phone. This guy in smart army uniform is a mummy's boy. And his mum was like scolding him why he's back late and stuff like that.

Oh my goodness! Mummy, give this guy a break. He's not a boy who's wearing primary school uniform and 'mini' shorts and high socks. He's a man who's serving national service.

I can't believe such a thing exist in Singapore still. Are most 'educated' men in Singapore still a 'mummy's boy' that is dependent on their mums? I definitely think so.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Monday, February 05, 2007

It's nice to hear that my new rugged look and my haggard facial hair makes me look mature and...sexy?!

Anyway, had my interview. Such a relief. Everything was going smooth and I had half of the documentations signed. The English prepatory test is a shocker. It's like PSLE bloody easy English but I had no idea why I was puzzled at some of the questions. How come does 'easy' suddenly look so 'chim'. And how funny is that considering I've got A2 for my O levels English. Sheesh!

Waiting for results most probably by next week. Still have alot of admin stuff to settle like the bank, my student visa, booking air ticket, army matters etc...sigh!!! And the last interview via phone from Australia! I'm crossing my fingers!

There's one thing that the interviewer told me that really made me smiled chin to chin.....

Majority of the students are from Japan and South Korea. And I'm one of the very very few from Singapore. Can you believe it? This is definitely unprecedented! Once again I'm having Japanese coursemates and perhaps room-mates too. Just like back then in 2002.

Hahah...I think my parents must have noticed that gleaming face of mine, I really couldn't control it.

Days are getting nearer, certainly getting intensed and I'm waiting for results!

I'm tired, gotta rest now!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 04, 2007

Now this is my celeb look-alikes and Yen Min's. Yen Min song bo...super chio stars le!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 04, 2007

I'm putting up 'celebrities look-alikes' of my friends. Enjoy!

OMG she even resembles Matsuura Aya...no wonder ;D!

Gaia...Avril Lavigne is my idol le...hahaha!

Cool! I've always thought she looked like a Korean!

Ahh...Maggie another Matsuura Aya look-alike!

I'll try to put up more of my friends' next time. If you have any pics that you can send me please do ok.

(now that I realise something, my friends' features do resemble my mum OMG thus maybe why I'm so comfy being around em)

Email to mars.fleurdelune@gmail.com

Thanks!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 04, 2007

Love!

I used to be a sceptic every now and then. But I'm thinking out of the box now with a far open mind. Life is unpredictable, anything can happen!

The day we were born, I believe God has made a partner for us. Just like he gave Adam his partner our heavenly mother, Eve. It's just up for us to find the 'missing link'. A matter of right time and a tiny stroke of fate.

We will never know when is the Right One. The Right Now doesn't necessarily mean the Right One which I've learnt a couple of times the hard and painful way. The Right One is always there without you realising, and always keep on coming unconsciously. It's just a matter of 'the right time' and perhaps a little help from Cupid.

I did mention before that I have no intention of marriage. But like my father said, "when someone comes along, it might just be God's intent". I'd always be accepting with open arms.

Though I doubt my companion would be from Singapore. It's either I go back to my roots from Indonesia or when someone comes along in my future travels overseas or perhaps as near as neighbouring Malaysia.

God knows, we'll see!

(Hate to say this but Happy Valentine's! It's better to spread love than war. Spread the love don't make enemies.)

~ Argggh kangen banget sih! Dimana cahaya hati yang ku idami! ~

Great One Destined procrastinated on Sunday, February 04, 2007

Contrary to what others believe I'm not a rich kid ok. I'm ordinarily average like everyone else.

Believe it or anot, I'm going cheap and simple!

Today was the first time I ate at a non-airconditioned old school hawker centre after a very very long time. It's unbelieveable how cheap a bowl of noodles is with generous serving.

Have to cut down on my usual diet of Western and Japanese. I've got to eat more home meals now. Gotta cut down on unnecessary expenditure.

Hoooo yeah baby, it's living the simple life!

I've depleted my vault like real fast and I've got to save up for my stay in Australia.

Wonder if I could still attract the same attention if I'm just a tee-and-jeans average plain Joe. But that doesn't matter does it. If I want someone to be attracted to me she has to like me no matter what I wear or what I look like. That'll be cool!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Saturday, February 03, 2007

How Much Have You Changed In 6 Years?

Year 2001

How old were you?
> 17

Where did you go to school?
> Juying Secondary

Where did you work?
> Weren't working

Where did you live?
> Lakeside

Where did you hang out?
> Orchard Rd

How was your hair style?
> Err...Armani, know with that spiky fringe

Did you wear braces?
> Nope

Did you wear glasses?
> I was a freakin geek!

How many tattoos did you have?
> None

How many piercings did you have?
> Then..zilch

What car did you drive?
> Nah

What was your favorite band/group:
> Savage Garden, Gackt

Worst fear?
> Attractive girls

Gotten drunk?
> Never drank then

Had you driven yet?
> Nope

Had you been arrested?
> Never in my entire life

Had you been to a real party yet?
> Wasn't much into parties

Had your heart broken?
> Yeah, remained single for 5 years cos of that

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!**
__________________________________________

2007

How old are you?
> Turning 23

What grade are you in?
> Holding a useless Dip in Mass Comm & an incomplete Dip in Design

school?
> Awaiting result to get into Aspect College in Australia.

Where do you work?
> Was working at the airport

Where do you live?
> Lakeside

Where do you hang out?
> Still Orchard

Do you have braces?
> Nope

Do you wear glasses?
> Usually at home

Still talk to any of your old friends?
> Yeap

Who is your celebrity crush?
> Matsuura Aya

How many piercings do you have?
> One

How many tattoos?
> Ahh...its a secret

What kind of car do you have?
> Not yet, right age for me to have one is 30 when I should be more financially stable

What is your favorite band/group?
> L'arc en Ciel, Gackt

What is your biggest fear?
> Being emotionally attached to someone

Have you gotten drunk?
> High, yes. Drunk, no.

Have you been arrested since if so how many times total?
> Never

Has your heart been broken?
> Last year alone was MAJOR!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Saturday, February 03, 2007

50 ODD Things About Me

If you opened this, FILL IT OUT!

Learn 50 things about your friends,

and let them learn 50 things about you!

1. How tall are you barefoot?
- 180cm

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
- never

3. Do you own a gun?
- i wish

4. Do you play with the ads on the side of the screen?
- what ads?

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
- yeah who wouldn't

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
- oishii

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
- silent night

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
- soya bean & orange juice

9. Can you do push ups?
- i don't go ns for nothing

10. Is your bathroom clean?
- considerably clean

12. Do you like painkillers?
- i fight my own pain naturally

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
- my smile, my 'dreamy eyes'& next is super TOP SECRET

14.Do you own a knife?
- is a sword considered one?

15. Do you have A.D.H.D?
- is that 'Alternately Diseased Horniness Deficiency'? no i don't!

16. Middle Name?
- Andi

17.What's your normal bed time?
- 3am

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
- lipton tea, green tea, iced water

20. What time did you wake up today?
- 5am...which is very hardly possible

21. Name one person that comes to mind right now:
- anesa

22. Current worry?
- my college interview, & my constant worries of going to australia for a long time

23. Current hate?
- discrimination

24. Favorite place to be?
- japan

25. Least favorite place to be?
- geylang

26. What happened to 26?
- huh?

27. Do you own slippers?
- should i give myself a slap

28. What shirt are you wearing?
- aint wearing any shirt

29. How many people have ever truly broken your heart?
- 3, but i don't hate them

30. Favorite color(s)?
- blue, black, purple

31. Would you be a pirate?
- i love to

32. Last time you had a whole alcoholic drink?
- just recently on wednesday

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
- whatever songs that came to mind or just blabbering

34. What did you fear was going to get you in the night as a kid?
- i had no fear when i was a kid

35. What's in your pockets right now?
- a couple of coins

36. Is anyone on your mind right now?
- yea absolutely...what a wrong time to harbour feelings for her

37. Do you think you get enough exercise?
- nope not yet

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
- having my balls hit by a bowling ball...ouch! (i'm still ok though)

41. Who is your loudest friend?
- my group of friends are loud not one

42. Who is your most silent friend?
- hmm...not that i know of

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
- i won't be surprised if there's any

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
- no...shooting stars are just falling asteroids

45. What is your favorite book?
- the samurai

46. What is your favorite candy?
- jelly-filled marshmallow

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
- pure piano bliss

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
- "my way" sang by me. Yeah I will record me singing that just for my funeral

49. What is one of your favorite quotes?
- what goes around, comes around

50. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
- watching discovery channel

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 02, 2007

This coming Sunday will be my 2nd interview for the college I'm attending in Australia and a preparatory test I've got to take. I'm feeling so nervous right now. I know the possibility of me passing is high but I still feel so damn nervous that I kept dreaming about it.

I still have mixed feelings and uncertainties whether I really want to go Australia at this point of time. I made good friends and great acquaintances. I'm starting to bond with my family. Yet, after all these I've got to put them on hold for my studies?

This is too evil!

On other note, this is becoming crazy. I am undeniably infatuated. Hopefully she don't read my blog though. Secretly having a crush on an ex-colleague, Anesa. I don't know! And I'm not about to confess to her either. For now I think it is better for me to just like someone and not more than that. It's just not time yet. So I'd just keep this to myself and whomever that read this dark little corner of cyberspace.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Friday, February 02, 2007

This is fucking pissing me off!

Let me explain this once and for all!

I'm NOT cheena! I'm NOT mat! I'm NOT a Harajuku poseur! Nor am I FUCKING trying to be bloody fucking ang moh!

Mind my language! Yes I'm fucking pissed!

I'm not trying to be like anyone, it doesn't even bother me if I don't fit in anywhere. I am being myself, a trendsetter unlike you fucking copycats that look like clones of each other walking down Orchard!

I'm trying to be cheena? FUCK YOU! I have chinese relatives on mum's side. And I've been exposed to chinese culture and chinese shows since I can remember when. Calling me acting cheena is the same as insulting my mother you mother-fuckers!

I'm a mat? Oh please, I'm not even a malay. And comparing me with a mat is like comparing a $1 glass to a Swarovski crystal. They are not even near my league.

I'm a Harajuku poseur? Oh unlike you, have you even step into Japan? So what if I like the Japanese culture and fashion. I was exposed to Japanese 'everything' even before I started kindergarten. Oh right, even before YOU people were swept by the 'Japo craze' few years back. About the Japanese fashion scene, unlike you copycats, they are individually fashionably expressive. I wear what suits me, and it took me 4 years to find my 'fashion identity'. I don't just clone off from phasing trends.

Am I trying to be ang moh? Fuck You! It just so happens that I've been listening to BBC since young. Reading english novels was my hobby and I loved my English lessons in school. I loved travelling and my accent just built up over the years. I'm really ashamed to say that majority of Singaporeans really have improper diction. Sheesh! So much for an English speaking nation. Even Malaysians in KL speaks better, and PROPER English. And for once, never in my entire life have I mentioned that I looked up on the caucasians and worship them. I'm proud to be Asian. Asians have a strong inculcated moral values but unfortunately, that too is going gone thanks to westernisation. How sad!

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 01, 2007

This is sick! I know different countries have different food culture but this is just sick to me. Cats and dogs are smart creatures. And they feel fear as well as pain too. They know when they are in danger, they know when they are threatened. Those meows are an example of their distress call. Pathetic how inhumane humans have been.

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 01, 2007

Another video of the cute dancing robots. Ahhhh...fan of SONY FOREVER!!!

What if your sushi still moves? Now that's what I call fresh.
(I doubt it is still alive. It's just an abrupt muscle spasm just like when sometimes parts of your body parts twitches uncontrollably. So the possiblity of the shrimp being still alive and feeling pain is probably zero.)

Great One Destined procrastinated on Thursday, February 01, 2007

WTF!!!

Roadblock at my area on my way back home after a tiring clubbing session.

The police asked if I'm a foreigner...instead of asking if I'm a Singaporean, he asked,"Excuse me sir, are you a foreigner?" -_-

Gave him my IC and I was asked to get out of the cab. Sheesh! Do I look like a crook? And that bugger was staring at my IC and kept on looking at me repeatedly. He asked me so much stupid questions like what's my occupation? Where am I studying? Why am I going back so late? Bummer! Even my mum don't ask me so much. I know there's such thing as a curfew for 'underaged' people but do I even look like a secondary school student?

When I got home (almost), I got locked out the house. Yeah, clever me gave my keys to my brother knowing that I'd be home late. Arggh! Not wanting to wake up the entire household, I waited at the gates till 5am like a good little dog that just found it's way home and locked out.

That aside....

I had a great time at Zouk/ Phuture celebrating Qi Wei's birthday. Otanjoubi Omedetou Gozaimasu!

It's really been a long time since I last drank and get really really high. Last night was definitely it. I got wild again on the dance floor, AS USUAL!!! Looks like clubbing fever is catching up on me once again.

It's full moon, perhaps the reason why I'm so extra-super energetic. Lovely lovely night. Nostalgic moon.

As expected, Anesa was really gorgeous. Like a fair moon princess. Ok don't mind me, the alcohol is still in my systems.

Ah my head's cracking up. Gotta get to bed soon after this.